|procrastination steals our potential
||[Oct. 2nd, 2003|04:35 pm]
Yesterday I read an essay that said in a nutshell procrastination steals self-esteem and not time. That we have the same amount of time no matter what we do; it isn't taken away, but our feelings about what we didn't do affects our attitude and feelings toward ourselves. That sounds true occasionally.|
My first reaction was there was something more that procrastination takes from us too, but I've been having trouble putting it into words. Suddenly I'm thinking of going back to an old, early theme in this journal: Potential.
At any given moment we could be doing any number of things. We have the potential -- to wash the dishes that have been sitting in the sink for ... how long now? -- to pay those monthly bills we've been putting off, -- to enjoy the company of another, if we are lucky enough to have that option. -- Even mindless relaxing has its purpose on occasion.
Or we could give away the potential of all the productive, positive things and lapse into a habit that we do *just* because it's a habit while thinking we "should" be doing something else, and lose the potential of doing those other things we could be doing. We can never take back a second spent doing one thing and replace it with doing something else.
I used to try to make a habit out of asking myself every time I thought of it the question "am I doing what I should be doing right now?" And if I answered that I wasn't I would stop and go do whatever I should instead.
Somewhere along the line I got out of that habit. It's time I started it again.
And now it's time I should be going over to my parents' home and make their supper for them.
-Faith and philosophy are air, but events are brass.-Herman Melville