||[Jul. 10th, 2004|02:03 pm]
I am tired, and in a melancholy mood. I have been thinking about the past. That's rarely a good thing. I just have memories of the past. |
"Now is eternity; now is the immortal life." As Richard Jeffries said. All we have to act on is the present. You can't live in either the past or the future. I get stuck in one or the other and forget to enjoy eternity more often than I should.
When someone says it is the journey that matters, this is what they are talking about. What we are doing in the present moment. This little stretch of our journey. To quote someone a little more famous than Mr. Jeffries, Oliver Wendell Holmes said "A man may fulfill the object of his existence by asking a question he cannot answer, and attempting a task he cannot achieve. "
Everything we do is a task we cannot achieve. At the present time all we can do is make a little step toward those impossible tasks. Sometimes we get lucky and find we've reached the impossible task's end. Other times we get weighted down by set back after set back. The nail that stands up, as a chinese saying goes, gets pounded down. If it's the journey that matters, how can a single moment that is eternal yet not even a microsecond in length be pounded down, our current step in our journeys?
I think I'll end this entry with some words by Anita Silvert:
I do not know what runs my life, or if it runs alone.
I do not know if travel waits, or if I'm headed home.
I do not know which stories in my life will have an end,
but I know I am sure to see each one of you again.