I feel like I should post some sort of follow up, but ... well, I don't know. Everything that is coming to my mind is either self-contradictory or ... ??? What? Pathetic? Whiny? Yeah, I think that describes it.
I try to be neither of those things. So to avoid it I shut up when I realize I'm headed in those directions. Hence, the last 2 entries (did I really just use the word "hence?!?!" Jeeze, I'm speakin' too good lately).
So now the phrase "Shut up shutting up" is coming to mind. :::::shrugging:::::
I do need to make some major changes. That's been a theme of this journal since my very first entry almost a year ago. I can "talk the talk," but "walking the walk" is something else.