||[Jan. 19th, 2003|12:14 am]
Responsibility - An act or course of action that is demanded of one, as by position, custom, law, or religion|
I have been stressed out this past week. When I was venting some of my frustrations in a way I shouldn't, I realized I needed to get a handle on what was going on to make me so frustrated. The conclusion I reached at that time was my frustrations were because of conflicting responsibilities.
Above I have a definition that I got from the thesaurus section of my American Heritage Dictionary program. When I was doing a rough draft of this little essay in my head I was thinking of a similar definition with the exception I was thinking the demands came from family, society, and one's own moral code. Semantics maybe.
Anyway back to the topic, what happens when differing responsibilities are in conflict? Prioritizing, of course. Easier said than done sometimes. So I became resentful that I needed to do such and such at the cost of not being able to do something else that must be done. A regular catch 22. Do this and get in trouble for not doing that. Do that and get in trouble for not getting this done. I suppose some resentment was part of my frustrations too.
My motivation was based on the negative. What trouble for not doing what would I rather face. Focusing on negatives is another thing that added into my unpleasant disposition this past week.
In the pop-psych lingo of Dr. Phil, my expectations were causing all my problems. I expected to be able to do it all, and I couldn't. I had to make some tough choices. Getting real? Bah, I like my fantasies sometime.
Enough of this rambling. Back to my fantasies for a time. Mmm, positions for an odalisque or three are now open.